So this journey before and after FAI surgery has taught me even more about how life seems to keep on going and you manage, or excel, or fail even in spite of your best laid plans. But like a lot of things. There's so much about our experience that we don't share. Why don't we do that? I want to do that. I want to be able to be honest, to reach out, to ask the universe is anyone else out there feeling like this.
So like I am in my life, in my blog I am brave and I ask the silly questions. I share some of my secrets, fears and pain. I do this because I believe I can be an example, a leader in a world where more often than not we keep these things hidden because we think that people will see them as ugly. But I am here to prove that it doesn't have to be that way. All of who we are is our experiences and even the messy and difficult parts of our life are beautiful.
Recovery of course has it's milestones that are so very exciting. But this is real. REAL life, and a REAL recovery.
So here are some things I didn't know going into this, some things I told a few people and even some things I haven't told anyone.
- The first two weeks were really tough - on my stomach and digestive system it got to the point even after a jar or two of prunes I wondered if I was ever going to go to the bathroom again.
- There were also several days that the nausea was so bad I lived under the veil of a cold cloth. (I can recall trying to explain to my husband at one point that the cloth wasn't wet enough nor was it cold enough).
- The day you manage to get a sock on without grunting is farther in the future than you expect and more exciting than you imagined.
- I thought there would come a point when I got bored - but it was worse, way worse. There were days when I felt depressed and trapped and days when a trip to the grocery store helped me feel normal again.
- No one told me how awkward sex was going to be.
- You don't realize how much you move, twist and use your hip doing just about EVERYTHING, until you can't!
So here are some things I didn't know going into this, some things I told a few people and even some things I haven't told anyone.
- The first two weeks were really tough - on my stomach and digestive system it got to the point even after a jar or two of prunes I wondered if I was ever going to go to the bathroom again.
- There were also several days that the nausea was so bad I lived under the veil of a cold cloth. (I can recall trying to explain to my husband at one point that the cloth wasn't wet enough nor was it cold enough).
- The day you manage to get a sock on without grunting is farther in the future than you expect and more exciting than you imagined.
- I thought there would come a point when I got bored - but it was worse, way worse. There were days when I felt depressed and trapped and days when a trip to the grocery store helped me feel normal again.
- No one told me how awkward sex was going to be.
- You don't realize how much you move, twist and use your hip doing just about EVERYTHING, until you can't!
- Once I graduated from comfy pants to real pants it was disappointing to see that the pile of pants that didn't fit was bigger than the pile of pants that did
- Your life becomes a countdown; first it's hours, then days, weeks, then months.
- Recovery doesn't happen as quickly as you might think. Well it's more accurate to say that recovery doesn't stay at the same speed. Somethings come easy and others take hard work and a long time.
- I constantly had to remind myself to slow down and take my time.
- I got tired easily early in recovery and still do.
- I admire all the moms and dads out there who have this surgery, get to the part of recovery to head back to work and still have children to take care of at the end of the day. I don't know how you do it. There are days when I am exhausted - I can't imagine being responsible for another human being in all of this!
- I wonder when I will get to be as active as I once was, and fear that I won't.
- There isn't enough information to help young women decide surgery before or after pregnancy.
There's so much still unsaid - I will continue to be brave and share my story and experience and I encourage you to do the same - Not just in your recovery, but in your life!
- Your life becomes a countdown; first it's hours, then days, weeks, then months.
- Recovery doesn't happen as quickly as you might think. Well it's more accurate to say that recovery doesn't stay at the same speed. Somethings come easy and others take hard work and a long time.
- I constantly had to remind myself to slow down and take my time.
- I got tired easily early in recovery and still do.
- I admire all the moms and dads out there who have this surgery, get to the part of recovery to head back to work and still have children to take care of at the end of the day. I don't know how you do it. There are days when I am exhausted - I can't imagine being responsible for another human being in all of this!
- I wonder when I will get to be as active as I once was, and fear that I won't.
- There isn't enough information to help young women decide surgery before or after pregnancy.
There's so much still unsaid - I will continue to be brave and share my story and experience and I encourage you to do the same - Not just in your recovery, but in your life!
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